My argument thus far

Basically the argument that I have been making so far has been:
If a religion or belief IS the one TRUE religion or belief, then how come its members or followers do not show its TRUTH through the majority of their actions?
I know I didn't phrase that quite right, but you get the point.

So now, back to my journey.

• I understand grace and forgiveness. I can forgive the people that have been rude or insensitive to me.
• I also know that there are religious people, and especially Christian people that I know personally, who are very moral and kind, and do 'show Christ' through their everyday choices. I ran into an old classmate of my older siblings. He is on staff with Campus Crusade for Christ and is a regular at the Barnes & Noble store that my husband works at. This Christian man never fails to say hi, to ask me how I am, and to be sincerely interested in my responses. I still have good friends that I went to church with. I still have coffee with some of them on occasion. They are Christians who I feel really are trying to live up to a higher standard. That higher standard including: not judging or gossiping, and fully loving all humans. I really admire those people.
• I also know atheists and agnostics who are doing the same thing.

Anyway, at some point in my journey thus far, it no longer seemed to matter that I have had all these horrible church experiences. The main affect those have had on me is to keep me out of 'church,' but not necessarily changing my view on whether or not there is a God. That has been a process over my whole life. I have had doubts for a long time, at least since before my teen years. I'll admit that I am a logic junky. I love to put theories into my own 'What would happen if..' scenarios, and challenge common beliefs. I share this trait with my husband. So, that is where the questions begin to multiply.